same story, different day

it hasn't even been done yet.
one month seems like such a long way more - it seems like forever. somehow.
but everday it's the same story, different day.

i'm exhausted. really.
emotionally, mentally and physically.
how am i to cope?
as much as i can't expect her to understand what i'm going through but why are our feelings being neglected?

i understand her fears. does she understand mine?
i know how she feels. does she know how i feel?

God, please help me.
i'm on a sinking ship and i really don't know what to do anymore.
how am i to make her understand and see the objectives?
please help me. i can't afford to lose my faith now. not now.